Being Grateful Even When You're Not

I have to keep reminding myself of all the things I do have and not dwell on the things I do not. As I try to stay afloat I have to admit I get tired of just paddling and staying afloat but sometimes I wonder if it would be better to stop paddling and let myself sink to the bottom. But then who am'I kidding there is no way that would ever happen...even as I curse and fight the entire way I would never just give up and go. "Perseverance" that's what my Calworks worker told me, that I had perseverance...I guess that's one thing I should be grateful for.